preface: On July 10th, I left for the mission trip I had been waiting for since 2013. A huge thank you to everyone who supported me financially and spiritually. I wouldn’t have been brave enough to accept this calling or equipped enough to embark on this trip to the DR without each prayer and donation. Thank you so so much to everyone who helped make this happen.
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking
You make me brave, You make me brave, and You call me out beyond the shore into the waves
July 18th, 2016
On the way back to the Santa Domingo Airport
I’m staring at the ocean and thinking about how beautiful it is, not because it’s the ocean, but because God created it.
It’s beautiful because God created it, and it’s beautiful because of how much it reflects God and His glory.
It’s so blue here in the DR, absurdly blue. It’s blue and amazing here in the DR, but those characteristics pale in comparison to its ability to reflect its Maker.
Just like the ocean, God can be kind of scary: huge and vast. We haven’t seen all of the ocean; it’s revealed some of itself to us, but it’s so much deeper than we can fathom; there are depths of the ocean we’ve never seen, depths we’ll never see, depths too immense for us to understand– just like God.
Jesus Walks on the Water
22 Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. 23 And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, 24 but the boat by this time was a long way[a] from the land,[b] beaten by the waves, for the wind was against them. 25 And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. 26 But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. 27 But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”
28 And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” 29 He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind,[c] he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” 31 Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” 32 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 33 And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
Just like the ocean, God has the ability to drown us, drown us in His love. He can carry us to places we’ve never been with that love, and we don’t even need a boat. We just need faith, we just have to trust Him enough to walk out into the water like Peter.
And maybe we’ll get scared like Peter. That’s okay; that’s only natural, but that’s why we just like Peter, have Jesus.
We have Jesus to help us keep walking even when it’s scary, even when the shore seems so far away.
We have Jesus to help us because it’s worth it to walk out to where God is calling us rather than to stay in the boat.
It’s worth it even when it’s scary, even when it’s stormy.
Even if we need help to keep walking, it’s worth it.
With Jesus, we can all be like Peter; when we hold Jesus’ hand and keep walking, God can use us to change the world.